amand_r | Entries tagged with sick

For those of you who don't know, kidlet has been struggling with some illness or another since the beginning of September, and Friday we had our third doctor's appointment when they finally decided to do a chest x-ray. In the meantime she was started on some prednizone for her crackling chest, and we are continuing to try to use the inhaler.

Saturday morning the doctor called to say that the chest x-ray revealed pneumonia, so she has also been started on a z-pak. So.

I haven't really been on my best game, and I'm sorry. Nano has fallen by the way side. I was up every two hours last night to check on her respiration, and TBH, it wasn't because I set an alarm, but that I just keep waking every 2 hours, have been for the last few weeks.

I'm slightly worried because my insurance, it sucks, so we had to go to an urgent care and they just sent me a bill for 155 bucks, etc, and since her doctor visits aren't preventative care, I have to pay like 100 bucks per visit, not to mention whatever they're going to charge me for the breathing treatments. The bill for her inhaler and last antibiotic (which apparently didn't work) in October was about 80 bucks.

That said, I have the money. I just don't like to dip into it.

I was driving home from the doctor's, worrying because they said that if this doesn't clear up, or if it comes back next year we'll have to have the asthma talk, and I was thinking about what THAT would cost, etc etc, and I realised that this? This is nothing. I have the money to pay. It won't be nice, but I can pay it and it won't be on credit. This is not the end of the world. She has pneumonia, not leukemia or something else. We have a roof over our heads. My job is raising my daughter, and I get paid for it. I have been writing, and my first story is coming out next Monday (non-profit, no biggie, but nice). These bad things will pass, and they're not really a big deal. It's not cholera. It's not a hurricane.

I love my girl. And I am thankful every day that we have each other, and everything will be all right.

I'll be back on track later. ( For now, experiments in linzer fail and fragolo update. )

Current Mood: goatee'd
Current Location: the luge
Current Music: next iron chef

Last week I went to the Urgent care because my throat was sore on one side to the point where my neck was sore. The doctor gave me a Z-pak and some magic swizzle, which didn't work because my throat is sore on the outside. The antibiotic, however, worked like a charm and in 2 days I was feeling better. I finished the Z-pak Saturday and all was well.

EXCEPT.

Everything came raging back Monday night. I was due to see my doctor Wednesday, so I held on, and now, I'm still recovering. He gave me a scrip for another antibiotic that is a ten day one. Something about Z-paks not working sometimes due to their brevity. Lovely waste of money, that was.

Anyway, I am tired and sick and I haven't written in 2 weeks because I just haven't felt well enough. well there was that one story. Anyway, I feel...

I dunno if there's a point to writing any more fanfic, actually. That's how I feel. I dunno. I'm writing some and..anyway, whatevs, I feel bad because my betas have been all over it and I feel like they wasted their time. I dunno if I have anything else to say.

Maybe I'm just sick and tired of being sick. And tired.

Current Mood: sick
Current Location: Svalbard
Current Music: don't try to figure it out. just go with it.

I don't think it's news to anyone that I'm an up and down person. I have mood swings, and until recently I have always gone with the flow. Back in February the anger end of those issues started to hinder relationships, so I tried to locate causes and tracking on a calendar, and lo and behold they were cyclical, like another cycle I have, go fig. Knowing that it was "that time of the month" for my anger issues had helped me to control that. That's fine.

( Here's where everything went pear shaped. )

Current Mood: busy
Current Location: sandworms!
Current Music: don't try to figure it out. just go with it.

1. ( I know how much you all like to make fun of me, so let me tell you a story called, Amand-r and the Smoke Detector That Won't Stop Fucking Beeping. )

2. ( I was in the Rite-Aid buying kitty litter the other day when I stumbled upon all the Valentine's Day stuff, and I immediately did my rendition of, 'IT'S THE MOST WONDERFUL TIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIME OF THE YEAR' because now is when you can get CONVERSATION HEARTS. )

3. After a few days of pretty much having a tenuous grasp on reality, I have decided that there are many forms of defined hallucinations: auditory, aural…uhm, other kinds. But they don't really have a word for the point where you think of shit and say, "Man, that's a great idea," and you write it down for later, and then when you're feeling better you go over the ramblings of your crack-addled mind and think, "What the hell was wrong with me?" I have decided to call these "conceptual hallucinations."

4. I love writing these things so much. Writing about this and the thing about the Snuggie from December makes me wish that I could make them cohesive enough to make into a book.

5. So We held gold dust in our hands was nommed in the kink category over that the forbidden awards, and I'm of two minds. One, I want to win because hey! Yay! BUT, and this is a big but because I like big buts and I cannot lie, there are at least three other stories that I think are kinkier than mine, in the good way. Trixie, Wynkat and Frostie all have stellar stories nommed in there, and I feel. Hrm.

NOM NOM NOM NOM. YOU KNOW IN YOUR HEAD EVERY TIME YOU SEE "NOMMED" YOU MAKE THAT NOISE. OMG SOMEONE CONJUGATE NOM.

Current Mood: what the shit is that?
Current Location: no serious, look at that mood
Current Music: wtf, dudes?

Let's take a moment, before we start to think about the following two things.

a. Kris Kross? Remember them? Haahaha.
b. A line from their song "Jump": Don't try to compare us to another bad little fad

HAAAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHA. HA. That is all.

1.

husiemama sent me the following PM: Blue Gillespie-"We have finally named our debut album Synesthesia."

OH LOLOLOLOLOL CLARKY. RHYS. OTHER PEOPLE, LET ME BUY YOU A PINT. OR THREE. WHAT CAN I GET FOR 7.44? ILUGUISE.

Seriously, people, I want to smoke a joint with these dudes so fucking much. Like, we'll get together, smoke up, talk about dumb shit, eat some Twiglets or whatever, and then they'll go away and I'll take a nap.

2. SICK STOP SEND SHERPAS STOP SEXY SHERPAS STOP ARMED WITH HOT OILS AND THOSE ROCKS THEY PUT ON YOUR BACK STOP ALSO MAYBE SOME SOUP STOP

3. FOR CONTENT, I PRESENT THIS DUMBASS MEME:

Step 1: Put your MP3 player on random.
Step 2: Post the first line from the first 20 songs that play.
Step 3: Post and let everyone you know guess what song and artist the lines come from.
Step 4: Strike out the songs when someone guesses correctly.
Step 5: Looking them up on Google or any other search engine is CHEATING!

( OH YEAH, YOU GUYS ARE SCREWED. I SKIPPED ALL THE FOREIGN LANGUAGE ONES. )

Current Mood: grenn fucking lemon
Current Location: lemon! dammit!
Current Music: gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah

If you could have me write a fic specifically for you, what would it be like? Fandom, characters/pairing, genre, plot elements, kinks... what's your ideal fic from me?

You know, this is generally how I get started writing my fics, if you think back to my ouvre. So there is a chance that I might write that fic.

current status: GIP

Current Mood: sick
Current Location: green lemon again
Current Music: green lemon!

OMG GETTING SICK.

OH NO YOU DIN'T.

Current Mood: sick
Current Location: green lemon
Current Music: green lemon!

1. Kidlet is sick. I am not a happy camper. Invariably, I will get sick. Bah. But she's miserable. Keeps walking around the house going, "MY NOSE! MY NOSE!" Yeah, I know, girl, but there's nothing I can do.

2. For reasons that I shan't go into, I need Torchwood Jack/Ianto kidfic recommendations. They can be good, bad or epic. I don't care. But I don't read kidfic, and I need a sampling so I can see tropes and shit. I'm not interested in the MPREG bit, or infancy much. I want kids. 18 months and on. I don't care whose they are originally, but they have to be J/I with kids. [NOTE: YEAH, I HAVE READ

dsudis's Get Loved...etc.]

3. I have a new writing regime. I have 10 (ten) stories designated as "open" or "in play". They are all on paper. Every day I pull the stack out and work on every single one until I feellike stopping, then I file it back in the "in play" bin. Then when the pile is empty I get them out, shuffle them, and start all over. It guarantees that I work on more than one thing at once. So far so good. Right now I have:

a. The Jaws thing
b. The VS
c. Project with Crue
d. Project with Hope
e. An owen/ianto
f. The alice fic
g. A truth serum fic
h. Bodyswap
i. A jack/god
j. A tw/hl

4. Because I am procrastinating about all that up there, a meme:

Ask me one fandom-related question in the comments. This can be fandom specific, general, or about fandom/lj stuff/fic writing/etc. in general.

Just one question, please, but it can (and perhaps should) have sub-parts.

Question can be as wacky as you want. Ask me about tv shows, characters, fanfic in general, fandom issues/meta, anything about any of my stories specifically. Whatever you want.

I figure that gives me a lot of wiggle room. Whatever you want. Just no NCIS, Merlin, or SPN. If you haven't heard me talk about it before, I probably don't know it. OH! I HAVE A FANDOMS LIST!

Current Mood: apathetic
Current Location: the hub
Current Music: the muppet show