you hair was long when we first met

[amand_r]

1. I remain sad. I do not know why. Bleaugh. But blocking out fandom is A LOSING BATTLE, since I find that entertaining, at least. Still. I need to self-police…suck my personality back in. In this bottle. Labeled, uhm, 'Cleaning solvent'. Hrm. Wrong bottle.

Maybe I should go to the cemetery. Tianyu would know what to do. Why I even wonder is a mystery. Tianyu would have said, 'Fuck all y'all bitches' and then dropped his pants so that he could wave his dick at you.

Wow. I know I miss Tianyu when one of his more irritating habits makes me melancholy and verklempt.

2. I had to drop out of the Torchwood Virtual Season 3, and I'm kind of sad about it, even though I did it voluntarily. I feel like I couldn't deliver what they wanted, given the parameters of like, working well with others and in general plot issues, and I wish them well. I will be reading and cheering from the sidelines, because people? It's a fucking fantastic season with some amazing writers (the best, actually!).

3. This leaves me with lionessvalenti and our TORCHWOOD BIG BANG OF DOOM. I am not betraying secrets to tell you that it is JACK/TARDIS/IANTO. AND IT IS AWESOME if you like porn and funny! Poly big bang is progressing and in the hands of some loverly people (blue_fjords, the beta mistress extraordinaire, and curriejean, whom I roped into just reading it as if she was an alpha reader). None of you should read it, because you'll make fun of it. Hermione Big Bang is due Monday. I should finish making changes and send it. *is lazy*

4. HOLY SHIT I WANT TO WATCH TV AND WRITE AT THE SAME TIME BUT THAT IS NOT CONDUCIVE. I haven't seen True Blood since the Barry episode, and I have only seen one episode of PR, and if I am right, then Top Chef Las Vegas has already started? Le sigh. I haven't seen Weeds since the Van Nuys episode. And I think I have netflix disks here since…March 30. Oops. I think I'll just send M back, unwatched. Was it any good, people?

5. Last night was the first night that the kidlet didn't have crib rails on her bed. She was SO EXCITED about it, but alas, she awoke at 1 a.m., 4 a.m., and 6 a.m. Each time I tucked her ass back in bed, but mommy didn't sleep well.

6. I have to pay bills today. I keep forgetting they don't let me live here for free.

7. Did you ever have so many completely odd but unrelated things to do, that you know you should make a list, but you can't seem to recall more than one? And it nags at you? I'm like that. Right now all I can think is, 'Buy cowboy boots' (I'd just get my old ones resoled again, but the leather wore through at the toe. SUCK.). I know there's more. There has to be.

8. Welcome to Pennsylvania, where we love our elk (they do not taste like chicken!). Elk in Distress Rescued by Pennsylvania Game Commission Aw, the worst part is that he has to walk around like that for the rest of the year.

Elk1: Hey Bob, what happened to your other antler?
Bob the Elk: mumblemumblemumble.
Elk1: What? You're mumbling.
Bob: I GOT IT CAUGHT IN A SWINGET, OKAY? HAPPY NOW?
Elk1: That was you? I only saw pics of your ass.
Bob: I hope you get shot this season.

Comments

[azarias.livejournal.com]

she awoke at 1 a.m., 4 a.m., and 6 a.m

To point out to you the exciting fact that she didn't have rails on her bed?

[amand-r.livejournal.com]

No, crying probably BEAR MOUNTAIN HAD SLID ON TO THE FLOOR ZOMG. OH NO, STEVIE NICKS! THERE'S BEEN A BEARSLIDE!

[phinnia.livejournal.com]

M is marvelous. haven't watched it in ages.
that link is fab and i'm putting it in my morning clickies post of doom <3
augh, the cribrails thing. so sorry about the lack of sleep. i put the boychild's mattress on the floor when he was at that stage i think.

[amand-r.livejournal.com]

Haahahaha, it's not like she feel out or anything. It just that BEAR MOUNTAIN CANNOT BE CONTAINED.

I like the pictures of the elk when he woke up and walked away, it was that thing that cats do when they have just don't something embarrassing and they're trying to play it off.

::le sigh:: Maybe I'll try to watch M, then.

[phinnia.livejournal.com]

bear mountain needs like, a force field or something. a net. <3
if you do manage to watch it, let me know what you think.

[lawsontl.livejournal.com]

I still haven't accepted your resignation, but that's neither here nor there. I won't resort to emotional blackmail on your public LJ, and I've been too swamped to resort to it privately.

Let's just put it this way: remember when I was gonna drop out of WIAD? And you talked me out of it? And how rewarding it was for me in the end, how much I learned I could do that I never thought I could?

YOUR TURN

[amand-r.livejournal.com]

Please just accept it.

[lawsontl.livejournal.com]

I'm so not accepting. Blue chicken feathers in indelicate places? Accepting. Scat fic and pizza breath? Accepting. Autopsies made beautiful? Totes accepting. Trashed giggling on my breezeway at 3 AM while huffing Sharpies? BEYOND accepting; hoping for a repeat.

You thinking for a second you ain't got what it takes to make that fic your biotch? I'm so frakkin' intolerant of that idea, I should put on a bedsheet and burn religious symbols in its metaphorical front yard.

But I have one really important question...does this sheet make my ass look fat?

[beesandbrews.livejournal.com]

Live Journal ate my comment. And it was funny too! Sucks. Get awesome boots. Pay bills and yeah, what Tina said.

[amand-r.livejournal.com]

I love funny bees comments! crap!

I shall start looking for boots!

[blue-fjords.livejournal.com]

Duderina:
You know how I told you I was going to get awesome expensive food for lunch? Well, IT WAS SO FUCKING AWESOME!!! I ate every last bit, except for the red onions. I am so full, and we walked two miles back to our office. We passed the White House and this tiny park that I had never even seen before. It was the tiniest park ever, but it was pretty.

My Honest Tea's quote for the day:
"I am not bound to win, but I am bound to be true. I am not bound to succeed, but I am bound to live up to what light I have." -- Lincoln

What is M?

[amand-r.livejournal.com]

MOST AWESOME FOOD.

M is a movie about a serial killer. I think it was made in 1931. I don't recall. I guess I could watch it to find out!

[blue-fjords.livejournal.com]

Oh, that M. With Peter Lorre whistling, yes? It's supposed to be very good.

[kel-reiley.livejournal.com]

aww, poor elk - they make the weirdest noises in the middle of the night

2. :( we miss you!

7. yes! i... was supposed to be doing something
fucked if i know what it is

[amand-r.livejournal.com]

I often feel that way. Hrm.

[lawsontl.livejournal.com]

Ever since my pshrink upped my dose of happy pills, my brain periodically swiss cheezes. I have not begun to Quantum Leap about time and space "Oh boy!", so I must assume it's either drugs or age. I persist in blaming the drug, because I refuse to admit just how damned close I am to 40 (and I usually have to stop and think about it when asked, which says it all, dunnit?).

Where was I?

[kel-reiley.livejournal.com]

at least you have excuses

[lionessvalenti.livejournal.com]

I have not begun to Quantum Leap about time and space "Oh boy!"

OR HAVE YOU?

In the one where Sam came back to his life and Al was the one in the Quantum Leap program, Sam's brain started to swiss cheese all of the stuff he had done while leaping through time. Maybe that's what's happened to you. You DID, but you just don't remember it. :D

[lawsontl.livejournal.com]

Awww, man, I am so fucked.

[lefaym.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

Seriously, you helped me a great deal by talking to me last week, so if there's anything I can do for you now, let me know okay? I'd offer to write you fic or something, but that probably wouldn't help with your "stepping back from fandom" thing (though I do still owe you birthday fic) -- still if you want to give me a prompt for a cheer-up drabble (which may be an actual drabble, or may expand into a ficlet, depending), then go ahead. :)

[amand-r.livejournal.com]

LOL I was feeling bad for bitchslapping you last week! You caught me on a bad day! But naw, I get where you were. It's hard.

I'm cool, just sad and shit. I'll feel better in 2 weeks or something.

[lefaym.livejournal.com]

You totally didn't bitchslap me, honestly. You were kind and sweet and reasonable. You didn't say there was anything wrong with the way I was feeling (and still am feeling, really), but you kind of suggested a more positive way of dealing with those feelings.

And I think I needed to hear that.

Anyway, the "anything I can do" offer still stands.

[amand-r.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the offer. Can you magically change my personality?

[lefaym.livejournal.com]

Hmmm. No.

But even if I could, I wouldn't want to.

[amand-r.livejournal.com]

Nice to know.

[brilliant-snark.livejournal.com]

Number 1: Me too right now. Been in a FUNK. No clue why. BUT FANDOM KEEPS ME SANE. Or makes it 10 times worse. Hmmm, maybe it's all the ANGST FIC. :P

Number 5: Yay! No more jail-bed!

[amand-r.livejournal.com]

hAAHAHAHA IT'S FANDOM THAT IS MAKING ME SAD.

OH WELL.

BUT NO MORE KID JAIL!

[shadowedkit.livejournal.com]

1,2&3, goodluck with those ones.

4- I wish watching TV and writing (or studying/writing reports) could be done together! Its called being efficient!

Strangely enough I always do the fastest Sodukus either when listening in lectures with one ear or watching TV. Can't work that out.

Tru Blood Season 2 is starting this week. Oh Amand-r's flist (I'm sorry, I'm hijacking your post for a moment), is it any good?

Have fun with the kidlet tonight, hopefully mommy doesn't require another night of little sleep.

7 Oh I understand this completely. My to-do list in my mind is big; on paper it isn't because every.single.time I sit down to write it all down I forget whats to be done past *sleep*. Unrelated, I LOL at you wanting to buy cowboy boots. Do you have the hat to go with it or is that just too cheesy?

Completely unrelated? Your post titles are amusing :D

[amand-r.livejournal.com]

1/2/3 Thanks!

4. True Blood is good this season, but different from the book. WAAAAY different.

7. I have A cowboy hat, but I wouldn't wear it outside. I guess I should get a real one.

my titles are song lines! today is ebonics regina spektor!

[shadowedkit.livejournal.com]

Hmm.. I haven't actually read the books, reading has been a pas time lately with uni suffocating my eyes... *notes it down to read them and watch the series* Thankyou for answering!

I'm sorry I was just amused with image of cowboy boots.

Now I like that. Read Amanda's posts, google the lyrics and find out about new songs. Very productive :D

[amand-r.livejournal.com]

I like to spread the music love.