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Title: Downpour
Characters: Gwen, Owen, possibly Gwen/Owen
Rating: PG
Wordcount: 666 (or 337, depending on how you look at it).
Author's Notes: I'm just futzing around. Crue looked at it, but he didn't beta, so don't throttle him.
Summary: The linear is circular is linear is circular is a branch or a fire in a thing in a when on a wall.



Rain. That's all it is, actually. Jack tried to give everything meaning, but he was wrong, most days. A shadow doubling for a monster. A breeze that pretends to be the promise of so much more.

The coffee is cold. The vibrations draw your eye to it. Owen's feet on the hardwood make everything quiver a little.

You should go home to your man, forthright and true.

"That'll wear off in a while," Owen reassures you, catching your eye. "You have to stop thinking about it."

You don't want to see the marks on the surface of your skin, angry purple where it cut you. You don't want to think about the back and the forth of images in time. You can't imagine if everything felt like an hourglass spinning helplessly. Rotations are sickening.

You turn in your chair, listening to the metal groan in the axles.

"I should go home soon," you murmur. There's a big streak of something across the sky, or it could just be across the glass. An arc of blurriness obscures part of the buildings outside, makes them distorted.

But there's a comfort to all this, to not spilling secrets, so you sit there and wait. You ignore Owen's hands when they rest on your shoulders. You ignore the press of chilled lips against your temple. Time is just a zipline back and forth, has been since the accident.

Bodies aren't meant to be caught in the ebb and flow of non linear time, and your mind is an elastic band that has been chewed, little pinprick tooth marks that become visible and get bigger the wider it stretches. The coffee is still cold when you put your fingers in it.

You can't go home, not really. You can't explain the marks on your arm.

"I can't think for more than ten seconds," you say, "and then it flips backwards."

Owen's face is a sideshadow in the glass. "Then don't try to hold on."

You close your eyes. "It burns. In my mind."

Owen's face is a sideshadow in the glass. "Then don't try to hold on."

"I can't think for more than ten seconds," you say, "and then it flips backwards."

You can't explain the marks on your arm.

You can't go home, not really. The coffee is still cold when you put your fingers in it.

Bodies aren't meant to be caught in the ebb and flow of non linear time. Your mind is an elastic band that has been chewed, little pinprick tooth marks that become visible and get bigger the wider it stretches. Time is just a zipline back and forth, has been since the accident.

You ignore the press of chilled lips against your temple. You ignore Owen's hands when they rest on your shoulders. But there's a comfort to all this, to not spilling secrets, so you sit there and wait.

An arc of blurriness obscures part of the buildings outside, makes them distorted. There's a big streak of something across the sky, or it could just be across the glass.

"I should go home soon," you murmur. You turn in your chair, listening to the metal groan in the axles. Rotations are sickening.

You can't imagine if everything felt like an hourglass spinning helplessly.

You don't want to think about the back and the forth of images in time. You don't want to see the marks on the surface of your skin, angry purple where it cut you.

"That'll wear off in a while," Owen reassures you, catching your eye.

"You have to stop thinking about it."

You should go home to your man, forthright and true.

Owen's feet on the hardwood make everything quiver a little. The vibrations draw your eye to it.

The coffee is cold.

A breeze that pretends to be the promise of so much more. A shadow doubling for a monster. Jack tried to give everything meaning, but he was wrong, most days.

That's all it is, actually.

Rain.

THE END

HERE, HAVE A RAMBLY COMMENT

Date: 2010-07-05 03:42 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] heddychaa.livejournal.com
I didn't realize what you were doing until about halfway through, and suddenly it went SPROING! and the device was so perfectly sneaky and effective. It worked almost like a rubber band, stretched out until it snapped and you saw its shape. If that makes sense?

AM I JUST LEAVING YOU DRUNKEN COMMENTS AGAIN [livejournal.com profile] amand_r

Seriously though what I really like is how the nature of certain images changed in my mind on the second go round for example "glass" in the first half I saw as a drinking glass, and in the second go-round it was a pane of glass. I'm not sure if this was an intentional effect, but it was almost as if the reordering of things actually changed them on some fundamental level.

Re: HERE, HAVE A RAMBLY COMMENT

Date: 2010-07-05 02:31 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] amand-r.livejournal.com
THAT WAS TOTES NOT INTENTIONAL. UNLESS YOU LIKED IT AND THEN YES, I DID IT ON PURPOSE. LAWL.

Hah, yeah, it was really effing hard to do. I might try it again with something else. It's like a knitting pattern, you have to get the hang of it and then I bet it's a neat party trick.

Re: HERE, HAVE A RAMBLY COMMENT

Date: 2010-07-05 04:24 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] heddychaa.livejournal.com
KNITTING PATTERNS ARE NEAT PARTY TRICKS?

Re: HERE, HAVE A RAMBLY COMMENT

Date: 2010-07-05 04:25 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] amand-r.livejournal.com
THEY ARE WHEN YOU ARE DRUNK AND HAVE NO IDEA WHAT YOU'RE DOING.

ME: (KNITTING FURIOUSLY) AND VOILA! YOUR LOWER INTESTINES!
PARTY PEOPLE: OOOOOOOOOO.

Date: 2010-07-05 04:12 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] topgeargirl2.livejournal.com
This was very good.

Date: 2010-07-05 02:30 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] amand-r.livejournal.com
THANK YOU, BB.

Date: 2010-07-05 04:19 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] http://users.livejournal.com/_lullabelle_/
This is fucking genius.

Date: 2010-07-05 02:30 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] amand-r.livejournal.com
THANK YA VERRA MUCH.

Date: 2010-07-05 04:22 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wildeagain.livejournal.com
Not read this yet -- will tomorrow; going to bed -- but dude, full adder word count witchery. 666, OMG.

Date: 2010-07-05 02:30 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] amand-r.livejournal.com
I KNOW. I WAS LIKE, "SHOULD I ADD MORE WORDS?" AND THEN IT WAS ALL, "NO NO. EVIL."

Date: 2010-07-09 01:52 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wildeagain.livejournal.com
So, I re-read this last night and wanted you to know that it's pretty fucking brilliant. Yeah, comments about second person aren't that fulfilling, but can't help but mention the narrator actually sounds like Gwen, not just words moving her mouth. The bit about not going home is awesome.

My stupid is in full-force right now, and it makes it difficult for me to type any more thoughts, but fics like this keep me reading fandom stories.
Edited Date: 2010-07-09 01:52 am (UTC)

Date: 2010-07-09 02:03 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] amand-r.livejournal.com
That was awesome of you to say. I'm feeling rather stupid right now myself. It was a fun experiment. I forgot that I could use fandom to do shit like this. Duh.

Date: 2010-07-05 04:27 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] 51stcenturyfox.livejournal.com
Eeek, that's a cool experiment, actually. I like this.




(Bit inadvertently triggery for some if you have OCD though.)

Date: 2010-07-05 02:29 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] amand-r.livejournal.com
I thought about redoing it and starting the whole thing over at the end and just rearranging it, so I'd have the whole thing twice, but that was a bit much even for me.

Date: 2010-07-05 06:30 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] misswinterhill.livejournal.com
Fucking genius. Love, love, love the way the structure works.

So much awe.

Date: 2010-07-05 02:28 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] amand-r.livejournal.com
HAAAHAHAH THAT WORKS? AWESOME. THANK YOU BB.

Date: 2010-07-05 08:18 am (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] cruentum.livejournal.com
Still so loving it because it works BECAUSE the content interacts with the construction/style. Don't think this would work with just any story but here it does work. And I do like that you flipped the dialogue to Gwen in that last bit. And argh, still in love with that Jack paragraph at the end.

Date: 2010-07-05 02:28 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] amand-r.livejournal.com
Haahahah I did flip the dialogue because I could! I AM THE MASTER OF ALL I SURVEY!

Date: 2010-07-06 04:09 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] blue-fjords.livejournal.com
This was very funky monkey. Like the picture of the old lady and then you stare at it and it's a picture of a young lady. And some people see it reverse. I think in the first half I was taking a more literal approach, and in the second half I changed gear in my reading approach. (Meaning I thought there were dead bodies in the first one, but in the second, I didn't; the reference was just referring to people in general. I thought it was cool, and sad for Gwen.

Date: 2010-07-06 01:35 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] amand-r.livejournal.com
Awww, thank you, mah petite chouette.

Date: 2010-07-07 10:01 am (UTC)
used_songs: (gwen in the darkness)
From: [personal profile] used_songs
That is VERY VERY cool!

Date: 2010-07-07 08:28 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] amand-r.livejournal.com
tHANK YOU VERY VERY MUCH!

Date: 2010-07-10 04:37 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] hab318princess.livejournal.com
read it twice ... and still confused - I blame that on me being thick rather than the fic
Edited Date: 2010-07-10 04:38 pm (UTC)

Date: 2010-07-10 04:42 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] amand-r.livejournal.com
It's the same backwards and forwards. Because they're stuck.

Date: 2010-07-10 04:53 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] hab318princess.livejournal.com
off to read a third time... I may see it this time

Date: 2010-07-10 04:54 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] amand-r.livejournal.com
In the middle, it reverses.

Date: 2010-07-10 05:13 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] hab318princess.livejournal.com
Got it this time... brilliant and very clever fic!

Date: 2010-07-10 05:21 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] amand-r.livejournal.com
Thanks! I'm sorry it was a little too confusing.

Date: 2010-07-10 05:43 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] hab318princess.livejournal.com
I think, the confusion can be put at my door, not yours!

Date: 2010-07-11 08:13 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] neifile7.livejournal.com
I fucking love stories that match form to content. That is all.

Second person is perfect. Self and not-self, all at once.

Date: 2010-07-11 08:14 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] amand-r.livejournal.com
Thanks, bb! You really are hitting everything today!

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